Confidence....

Confidence is what I am feeling staring Mithadeline's biggest surgical procedure yet in the face. She seems confident also. The doctor told me today that the better we are able to put our game-face on and not freak out in the face of this scary external fixator, the more confidence Mithadeline will have in adjusting to it herself. I've seen pictures of other fixators and showed Mithadeline a picture one today. I want her to have an idea of what she is going to wake up to in the hopes that she will not be as surprised by it.

A synonym for confident is secure. How can I feel secure in or about something in which I have never experienced? I have a peace about this upcoming prodecure, when some parts of me say I should or could really be freaking out.

Proverbs 3:26 says,

For the Lord shall be your confidence, firm and strong, and shall keep your foot from being caught [in a trap or some hidden danger].

I have many occasion to get caught in a trap in this case. I could be worried about the uknown. I could be fearful of the pain Mithadeline will feel. I could be anxious about being away from home for a few days. I could be scared of the risks of the procedure for Mithadeline.

But instead I sit confident, secure, certain. Certain of the path the Lord is guiding us on. I am choosing to rid my mind of anxious or worrisome thoughts, replacing them with a firm and strong confidence in the Lord.